As a senior on the senior company dance team, I get to have a solo. It a shining moment that everyone looks up to as being the one time to be remembered and to shine as yourself and not as a member of the group. Naturally, I have been dreaming of what my solo would be ever since Sasha Hutchings (My role model) graduated and had like three solos that year Since I’m a dance teacher and I do choreograph a lot of dances, I can have as many solo’s as I can choreograph and make look good, haha. I have had one choreographed since the summer to Adele’s Make You Feel My Love, and started my all time favorite song Orange Shirt by Discovery. Competition is two months away and I just started over on the only one I had finished. On the bright side, both unfinished pieces look amazing and concept wise are some of the best choreography that I’ve made yet. I can just see them on stage. Orange Shirt being my shining hip hop/ technical jazz moment , and the new I’d Do it All Again as an emotional testament to everything I’ve done and to the end of my dance career (woooo!). Should be a good recital. Oh lord please just let me finish them :(
"ohhh you’re searching, for something I know won’t make you happy…"
last year i made a scavenger hunt on valentines for my boyfriend. It took him all around town to our favorite places and ended at school in my parking space that we fought over (cause it’s 007) with a huge box filled with his favorite candies and a bunch of Frisbees that asked him to prom. now this year, a friend i told has convinced this other boy to do the same thing. I’m crushed because it took my months and tons of prep to do it so it would be special for just me and my boyfriend. I kinda regret even telling anyone about it last year, but too late now. All the originality and none of the credit. Story of my life.
I now understand why yearbook is always the turning point. When you’re put in a leadership position over people who are your friends, you hold them to a much higher level than others. You depend on them to do their part and when that falters even the slightest bit, that dependability diminishes and, often times, with the friendship too. Personally, it’s that time of the year. You’ve been with these people for four years now and it’s time to GO. I can find something good in almost everyone but I’m at my wits end. Sometimes it’s upsetting because it feels like I can’t relate to the people I’m around, but when I take a step back and assess the situation, I’d rather not lower my standards of intelligence, humor, or maturity to get along with anyone. That’s who I’ve always been, and always be.
In the end, I’m okay with being the odd one out. In regards to yearbook, It hasn’t happened, but I can see how it could. I’m not asking a lot, just keep with my stroll, I’m not running or riding. It’s go time.